I saw your heart last night. I don't always get to see it, but I saw it.
We were all tired from a long days work and it was my birthday. You've never made a huge deal out of birthdays. I get that some how this is because of how you grew up, how your birthdays were treated. Still, your small efforts to show me love were seen. Your kids saw it too.
I saw the joy in your face when the Mariachi band came over to sing to me but startled me first. I saw you light up at my expression of surprise. I saw you skip over the dessert they brought because. you saw me sharing it with the kids and wanted us to enjoy it first. I saw your smile when I teased you before opening my birthday card. I had guessed it would be a comical card as usual, but it wasn't. Its as absolutely the perfect card that made me fall in love with you again.
The way you laugh at me and hug me because I make your heart happy makes my heart happy. The way you kissed me playfully in front of the kids and made them giggle. It was perfect. Your pride in buying me the perfect ice cream cake ever, was so adorable. I swear you make me fall in love all over again on a regular basis.
Mostly, I love how you show our kids how to cherish and honor their Momma. That will go far with them in the future. I love how you do little things on occasion to show your love. There's never any need for large or grand gestures, just the small stuff will do. They way you provide for our family. The work you are putting into building our home. The way you encourage our children to just be themselves and not worry about what others think. It makes me love you all over again.
All of this made me pause and wonder...do I do the same for you?
I see you when you come home from work feeling dirty and worn down. I see your wet clothes from rain or sweat and I don't always give it much thought about how hard your day might have been. I stress about how these dirty things are found lying on the floor outside of our shower instead of being thankful that we have dirty clothes laying outside the shower.
Did I thank you today? Did I just focus on what I needed from you when you walked in the door? Did I even ask you how your day was? Did I tell you how much of a blessing you are to us?
I dreamed last night you were crying and couldn't tell me why? I suspected it was something I had done, but had no idea what it could have been. It made me sad for you when I woke up and found that you had already started your day without disturbing my sleep. I am so glad it was just a dream.
I realize that I have neglected to see you for a long time, but I saw you and your heart last night.
I want our marriage to be the one that lasts until death do us part. I want to be the woman that makes you smile everyday. I want to be the one that wins your heart on a regular basis. I don't ever want you to have to wonder where you are loved the most. Right in my arms is where you belong.
When we were young I loved your eyes, your smile, your strength. I still love those things today. Your eyes and smile have created lines on your face through the years and your strength has filtered into so many areas of your life. You're a strong father, husband, provider, and lover.
I appreciate how you love us with such strength. I see you as that young boy I fell in love with. I wanted nothing more when we met than to be your girl forever. You have proven your love, day in and day out, for our family.
Today and always, I want you to know that I may not always see you. I may move forward in life and forget to pause. I want you to know that despite me, I still love you and always will.
I pray that you never stop finding joy in our love.
I pray that you never stop making me smile.
I pray that I never stop making you smile.
I pray that you always feel loved.
I pray that you are always able to be the husband and father you desire to be.
You are loved and appreciated my Dear.
Aimee is the author and founder of Homespun-Threads. She is also the author of the popular, marriage Bible study, Fresh Start. To learn more about Aimee, visit the About page.